Thursday, 23 August 2012

BLESSING IN DISGUST

Let's talk about how Jian Xiang and I are now alright ? We've broken up . That simple . The reason ? His feelings faded .

Since years ago , people always think that I don't cherish my relationships nor take it seriously . But I have always been serious about it . It's just that I can fall for any guy easily . I'm like a little girl . Innocent in love . I can trust people easily and ain't afraid to give others a chance to prove me that all guys aren't the same .

I've been in love twice my whole life and Jian Xiang is my third love . He's the guy I've done the most for . Don't wish to elaborate much .

Those who know me well should know that I'm forever unwilling to change for others as I feel that people should accept me for who I am . If not , they can kindly fuck off . But for Jian Xiang , he always called me "fat" and "ugly" even when I'm his girlfriend . I mean , which guy does that ?!

I guessed he was so embarrassed to admit the truth to Justin Maxwell and lied to him saying that our relationship status was just a fake . In order to make him proud of me , I decided to lose weight by taking pills and even thought of extending my hair as he did not like me with short hair .

I even asked him to remove his ex-girlfriend from Facebook but he scolded me instead . I told him that in relationships , everything cannot always go his way and that he should sometimes give in to me . He keep insisting that she was just a friend and that he would rather break with me than delete her away . I'm just so fucking unhappy with him .

Moreover , 2 weeks ago , I already started to make our first monthsary present which was actually next Wednesday but forget it , we're over .

One of my friends once told me to do the "3 Days Test" . Meaning not contacting your girlf/boyf for 3 days and see if he/she will be worried about you . I felt he was taking me for granted so I tested it today . But only for one day as I missed talking to him too much . Surprisingly , all he sent me was "Awake?" & "It's been a day and no reply? Wow." Or something like that , deleted it .

Seriously , bet many of you think that I've done the right thing to let him go right ? Obviously I cannot forget him completely in a flash but I guess I'll get over him soon . Hope that this break up will be a blessing in disguise . Furthermore , my 'O' Levels are coming up and therefore , I can prioritise my studies over relationships . Unlike him , prioritising his friends , sleep , food , exercise and every other thing while I'm just an option .

The pictures below are what I made for him and of course , it's incomplete . But who cares ? He won't be getting it already anyway .















ANYWAY..... IS MY GOLD HAIR NICE?! :D

MAKE UP & CLIP ON HAIR DONE BY MY DEAR COUSIN





AM I CUTE ?!?! GOT BORED SO TOOK SOME RANDOM SHOTS WHILE AT STAYOVER ^^

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