START OF SOMETHING NEW ♥

Hi guys ! Sorry for not blogging for sooooo long ! HAHAHA ! Shall talk bout my Friday and Saturday first !

So firstly , I met Shane Chia on Friday and he treat me eat wanton mee @ Nex’s Grafitti Cafe ! Damn nice of him right ?!?! HAHAHAHA ! But I’m pissed off at him cause he know me for close to a year and he still can ask me what’s my age !!! Retarded right ...  So yeah , met Kaiwen Xoxo , Ryan Keane , Jing Wei , and his girlfriend Tricia at Cineleisure in the afternoon ! My stomach just grumbled and I realised I have not taken my dinner ! Nevermind ! Treat it as a form of diet ! But I guess I’ll go and get something to eat later ... Fuck man ! HAHAHA ! Met Shane around 8PM when he was supposed to meet me around 6PM ! FUCK HIM MAN !!! Bumped into Luna Aproditee at Cine too and she sang song to me and guailan me , as usual . I swear I fucking miss her !!! That crazy bitch carried me up while we were hugging as she was about to leave and I was screaming like some fucktard . Super unglam can ?! I didn’t bring my camera out so Luna and Kaiwen used their cameras to take pictures ! Go to facebook and see alright ?! And if I have the time , I’ll edit this post and add the pictures once they are up !

Okay , so many of you are wondering why I cut my hair short ... Don’t say I’m retarded or what okay ! But it’s because of a guy . And yes , he is my most recent ex-boyfriend , Lloyd Khoo . He is the first guy I fucking love that much even though we were together for 2 weeks plus . We went through alot of shit and that made me realised that I really do love him and want to spend the rest of my life with him only last Thursday . We got together on 20 June 2012 but broke up 4 days ago on Thurday night . I remembered Kaiwen wanted to head to Ion to get one of our schoolmate’s birthday present so I went with her and I bought some stuff to make our first monthsary present . I wasn’t done with it yet and then we broke up a few hours after I realised that I fucking do love him . Right after he dumped me while we were on the phone , I had the sudden urge to cut my hair short because my life suddenly meant nothing to me . I cried that night for about an hour and a half and my eyes were so swollen that I had to wear spectacles to school on Friday . In the morning when I reached school , I cried again . And during the first period , I suddenly started crying again and shouted at my Maths teacher before rushing off to the toilet and my eyes became swollen again ...

However , my hair is everything to me . Some of you in my school would know how much it means to me , especially people in the same cohord as me .

I remembered when I was in primary school , I went to the hairdresser and told her I wanted to cut only 1 inch of my hair but she cut 2 and I went home crying to my Daddy . My daddy saw how heartbroken I was that he went and scolded the hairdresser . And when I was in lower secondary , if anyone touches my hair , I would run after them and wack them . That’s how much I fucking love my hair and no one is allowed to touch it . But at the same time , I’m fucking demanding . I will get my brother or my boyfriend to comb my hair when I want it . And I never ever ever leave house without a comb . My hair was practically my life .  But I figured out since Lloyd is gone , what’s the use of leaving my long hair on . And that was when my classmates brought me to cut my hair after school . When the hairdresser snipped off my long hair , I cried like fuck . I could’t bear to part with it but I shall not regret the decision that I made . I always thought that I’ll look really awful in short hair but I don’t think I do . To be honest , I’ve never seen my natural hair before because ever since young , I’ve been rebonding my hair for at least twice a year . The first time was during P5 that’s why I couldn’t remembered how it looked before . And the only time I had short hair was even before Kindergarden . I could never part with it . 

Just now while I was on the bus going home , the mere thought of Lloyd left me on the verge of tears but I told myself I had to be strong . I received comments saying that my hair before was better than now but I don’t regret this decision that I made myself . I guess it’s a brand new start for me and the lyrics below tells exactly how I feel about my new look ...

Start of something new by Zac Efron & Vanessa Anne Hudgens

Living in my own world
Didn't understand
That anything can happen
When you take a chance


I never believed in
What I couldn't see
I never opened my heart
To all the possibilities