ANG JIAN XIANG ♥♥♥

Dear baby boy,

Though I've been through many relationships before, no one can ever make me feel so special like how you do. Obstacles are arising unknowingly, but I promise as long as you're trying, I'm staying. Be it ups or downs, high or low, I will always be there for you. No one matters to me like you do. You're afraid that you'll neglect me just because you want to be a filial son, but I'll never blame you for it.

I remember that you send me a text saying "I couldn't sleep well yesterday as I was not used to it without you by my side. I need you so badly." And that made me smile to myself. I also remembered you using a pickup line on me "You must be tired running through my mind all day" and I told you last night "To send a picture of you to me so I can show Santa what I want for Christmas!"

Babyboy, I promise you that I'll not let anything or anyone break us apart. I’ll prove to you that I’ll be the bestest girlfriend you ever had. Oh yeah, I also remembered we once had a really funny convo before we got together. You told me that someone stole your heart so I asked you, “So you’re heartless now?!” You replied me, “It was stolen by you, so don’t ever leave me.” I was really touched by your sincerity though they were just sweet talks. But honestly, which girl doesn’t like it?

Moreover, as my Mummy went overseas for 4 Days 3 Nights, you came over to stay for 2 nights and took care of me when I was fucking sick. The worst fever I ever had. I was throwing tantrums at you in front of your friend, Melvin Chakee & Black McZumb, while in my room. I could break out in perspiration and then suddenly start shivering frantically. So I made you off the fan, on it, off it again, on it again. And you know how the story went. You cracked a joke to your friend about me at that time saying, “At this rate, I think I can quarrel with her at least 50 times a day!” And I burst into laughter. 

Ughhhh! I'm sick again! Okay, that's all for the post! 

PS. 亲爱的宝贝,我爱你.

70 QUESTIONS

So sorry for not blogging since forever ! Been really worked up and busy lately . Haha ! Okay , so yeah . I don't wanna seem too distant from my readers so I shall confess some stuff to you guys so here's 70 questions that I edited and ripped off Facebook ! However , I'm not going to answer some if I feel it's really too personal :D

YOURSELF

1. Full name: Cally Low (too personal and fugly chinese name)
2. Nickname: -
3. Zodiac sign: Rat
4. Primary school: Anderson Primary
5. Secondary school: Mayflower Secondary
6: Dream school: Anderson Junior College
7: Skinny or fat: Fat
8. Tall or short: Short
9. Sweats or jeans: Jeans
10. Orange or apple: Apple
11. Do you have a crush on someone: -
12. Eat or drink: Eat
13. Piercings: COUNTLESS (Used to: Ears-21. Now: Septurm)
14. Pepsi or coke: Coke

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN

16. In an airplane ? Yeah
17. In a relationship ? Yeah
18. In a car accident ? No
19. In a fist fight ? Palm counted ? (Slap)

FIRST AND LASTS
20. First piercing: Both earlobes
21. First best friend: Keerthana
22. First award: Primary 1 (Beauty Peagants)
23. First Love: Stanley
24. First word: -
25. Last person you talked to in person: Can't say but the one before was Jian Xiang
26. Last person you texted: Jian Xiang / Alex
27. Last friend you watched a movie with: <3
28. Last food you ate: Fried Noodles
29. Last movie you watched in theaters: Dark Knight rises
30. Last song you listened to: School song which was played this morning
31. Last thing you bought: Platform shoes from Editor's Market
32. Last person you hugged: <3

FAVORITES
33. Food? Bird's Nest / Hokkien Mee
34. Drink? Ice Milo / Milk
35. Flower? Hate them
36. Animal? Hate them
37. Color? Black
38. Place? Lalaland
39. Movie? Shark boy & Lava girl
40. Subject? PE counted ?

HAVE YOU EVER41. Fallen in love with someone? Yes
42. Celebrated Halloween? Yes
43. Went over the minutes/texts on your phone? Every single day
44. Wanted to smack someone upside the head? Yes
45. Eaten a whole pizza? Yes
46. Did something you regret? Yes
47. Broke a promise? Yes
48. Hid a secret? No
49. Pretend to be happy? No

YOUR FUTURE 

50. Want kids? 2 Pairs of twins :D
51. Want to get married? Yes
52. Career? I'M HOPELESS :D

WHICH IS BETTER OF THE OPPOSITE GENDER
53. Lips or eyes: Eyes
54. Shorter or taller: Taller
55. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic
56. Hook up or relationship: Relationship
57. Looks or personality: Both !!! ^^

HAVE YOU EVER
58. Lost glasses/contacts? Yes
59. Snuck out? Yes
60. Held a gun/knife for self defense? No
61. Broke someones heart? I think
62. Been in love? Yes, once, 3 years ago
63. Been arrested? Almost

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
64. Yourself: No
65. Miracles: Yes
66. Love at first sight: Yes
67. Santa: No
68. Forever & Always: No

TRUTHFULLY

69. Is there one person you want to be with right now: <3
70. Who your real friends are: Yuichi Low , Luna Aphroditee , Kaiwen , Shane

Oh anyway , I have a wonderful surprise for me that I wanna share with you guys ! I'm going to Batam on August 11-12 and Europe from November 22-December 1 ! 

Going to Europe means seeing the Eiffel Tower in Paris again , the cute boys in London again , and last but not least , MILAN WHERE THEY SELL SUPER CHEAP PRADA ITEMS !

WTF

Yeah , WTF . I spent about an hour doing up a post dedicated to Lloyd Khoo and he just deleted it like that as I forgot to log out of my account on his comp . He is the worse boyfriend I ever had . He cheated on me , lied to me , talked back at me , and have no respect for me at all .

ONE FUCKING HOUR . Just because of him , my stuff is gone . Anyway Lloyd , I know you'll be reading this . Since you changed something in my blog , I'll change something of yours on Facebook . You took away my post , I changed your password . Want your account back ? Re-blog every single word I that I posted in that post dedicated to you . If not , you can forget bout it .

START OF SOMETHING NEW ♥

Hi guys ! Sorry for not blogging for sooooo long ! HAHAHA ! Shall talk bout my Friday and Saturday first !

So firstly , I met Shane Chia on Friday and he treat me eat wanton mee @ Nex’s Grafitti Cafe ! Damn nice of him right ?!?! HAHAHAHA ! But I’m pissed off at him cause he know me for close to a year and he still can ask me what’s my age !!! Retarded right ...  So yeah , met Kaiwen Xoxo , Ryan Keane , Jing Wei , and his girlfriend Tricia at Cineleisure in the afternoon ! My stomach just grumbled and I realised I have not taken my dinner ! Nevermind ! Treat it as a form of diet ! But I guess I’ll go and get something to eat later ... Fuck man ! HAHAHA ! Met Shane around 8PM when he was supposed to meet me around 6PM ! FUCK HIM MAN !!! Bumped into Luna Aproditee at Cine too and she sang song to me and guailan me , as usual . I swear I fucking miss her !!! That crazy bitch carried me up while we were hugging as she was about to leave and I was screaming like some fucktard . Super unglam can ?! I didn’t bring my camera out so Luna and Kaiwen used their cameras to take pictures ! Go to facebook and see alright ?! And if I have the time , I’ll edit this post and add the pictures once they are up !

Okay , so many of you are wondering why I cut my hair short ... Don’t say I’m retarded or what okay ! But it’s because of a guy . And yes , he is my most recent ex-boyfriend , Lloyd Khoo . He is the first guy I fucking love that much even though we were together for 2 weeks plus . We went through alot of shit and that made me realised that I really do love him and want to spend the rest of my life with him only last Thursday . We got together on 20 June 2012 but broke up 4 days ago on Thurday night . I remembered Kaiwen wanted to head to Ion to get one of our schoolmate’s birthday present so I went with her and I bought some stuff to make our first monthsary present . I wasn’t done with it yet and then we broke up a few hours after I realised that I fucking do love him . Right after he dumped me while we were on the phone , I had the sudden urge to cut my hair short because my life suddenly meant nothing to me . I cried that night for about an hour and a half and my eyes were so swollen that I had to wear spectacles to school on Friday . In the morning when I reached school , I cried again . And during the first period , I suddenly started crying again and shouted at my Maths teacher before rushing off to the toilet and my eyes became swollen again ...

However , my hair is everything to me . Some of you in my school would know how much it means to me , especially people in the same cohord as me .

I remembered when I was in primary school , I went to the hairdresser and told her I wanted to cut only 1 inch of my hair but she cut 2 and I went home crying to my Daddy . My daddy saw how heartbroken I was that he went and scolded the hairdresser . And when I was in lower secondary , if anyone touches my hair , I would run after them and wack them . That’s how much I fucking love my hair and no one is allowed to touch it . But at the same time , I’m fucking demanding . I will get my brother or my boyfriend to comb my hair when I want it . And I never ever ever leave house without a comb . My hair was practically my life .  But I figured out since Lloyd is gone , what’s the use of leaving my long hair on . And that was when my classmates brought me to cut my hair after school . When the hairdresser snipped off my long hair , I cried like fuck . I could’t bear to part with it but I shall not regret the decision that I made . I always thought that I’ll look really awful in short hair but I don’t think I do . To be honest , I’ve never seen my natural hair before because ever since young , I’ve been rebonding my hair for at least twice a year . The first time was during P5 that’s why I couldn’t remembered how it looked before . And the only time I had short hair was even before Kindergarden . I could never part with it . 

Just now while I was on the bus going home , the mere thought of Lloyd left me on the verge of tears but I told myself I had to be strong . I received comments saying that my hair before was better than now but I don’t regret this decision that I made myself . I guess it’s a brand new start for me and the lyrics below tells exactly how I feel about my new look ...

Start of something new by Zac Efron & Vanessa Anne Hudgens

Living in my own world
Didn't understand
That anything can happen
When you take a chance


I never believed in
What I couldn't see
I never opened my heart
To all the possibilities

Ups & Downs

I'm sorry that I didn't blog for the past week ! Haha ! Been caught up with schoolwork plus I'm only allowed to use my laptop during weekends . Sucks to be me right ?!

Early in the morning yesterday , I woke up crying around 10AM and spam call Lloyd till he woke up . LOL . I had a nightmare . And it was the same one I had months ago . I had a fucking nightmare that my mum died , again . That was when I realised that while I was growing up , my mummy was growing old ...

Enough of that ! Hmm , I went to USS earlier in the afternoon but left after taking one ride of "Revenge of the Mummy" cause it started drizzling ! So Lloyd and I went to see Madagascar 3 @ Vivo City and it was awesome !! ^^